Today I learned that I need to focus on trusting myself and a realistic version of “destiny.” I spend so much time planning, analyzing, and critiquing, I often forget that I ultimately can’t control everything. I have learned to give in to the things that are “meant to be” and accept the things that aren’t. I have learned that regardless of my efforts, someone up there has different ideas, and they’re usually better than mine, even when they hurt a little bit.
There are days I want to know how my life will play out. Who will I fall in love with? Will I get to spend my life with them, or will it hurt? Will I ever know what it means to be completely content? Will I be successful, or will I be a waste of talent? Am I majoring in the right subject? Are my dreams too big…what if I fail? At 20, I feel like I am so young, and yet, life is flying by, and I want to know what it all means.
Today I realized that even though I can influence the outcomes for each question, I cannot answer them in all certainty; and today, I am content with that. I don’t want to think about what it all means, because eventually I will find out. I have to trust that as long as I do my best, life will turn out the way it’s supposed to, and I’m just meant to enjoy it.
Lucy Loves Life…and hot yoga epiphanies xx