Whole 30, Day 10: The Struggle is Real

Has this happened to any of you Whole 30-ers?

I finally had a moment of ” I hate this, I want ice cream,” yesterday. I was unbelievably cranky and totally down in the dumps.  For what reason? I don’t actually know, all I know is that I wanted sugar.

I didn’t want to get dressed up, I didn’t want to go out, I didn’t want to exercise, and I really didn’t want to crack away at my massive list of “things to do before New York.” I wanted a lazy day, but I also didn’t want to sit around. I was basically miserable and the only remedy I could think of was cake.

With that, I took the day as slowly as I could. My workout consisted of walking on the treadmill, while watching Russell Howard’s Good News (HILARIOUS), and staring out of the window. I figured at least getting my steps in would count for something, right? I went to my happy place (the kitchen) and whipped up a new recipe (yum) for dinner, which always lifts my mood a little bit…

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Can you tell we really like mango salsa?

For dessert, I did something totally against the rules and made banana and egg pancakes. I know, I know…OOOOOH Lucy cheated.

It was fantastic. Letting myself “cheat” took away this intense anxiety and miserable feeling I was having, I didn’t technically eat anything against the rules, and no one died; that’s my idea of a win-win situation.

So maybe I failed at getting beyond that psychological hurdle; but with a 10 page essay, a psych exam to study for, a room to unpack, a suitcase to pack, and other random activities on my to-do list, conquering my psychological attachment to banana-egg pancakes was the least of my worries.

On the bright side: I am seeing a huge decrease in bloating, and loving it!

Much love,

Lucy Loves Life…and mango-avocado salad xx

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What A Month Can Change

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Well guys, I’ve made it through my first month in blog land. I’ve decided that after every month I will recap what the last month taught me, and my new goals for the month to come. We will call this Where Is She Now: Lucy Edition. Like that Oprah show, but a thousand times cornier, and without, ya know, Oprah.

Because I have a million different things going, let’s break this into segments:

Diet & Fitness:

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Wow oh wow. Quite a bit has changed in the last month, in a way that looks nothing like I thought it would a month ago. I made this trip with the intentions of completing the Whole 30, being a little cardio bunny, and looking super awesome when I left, see here for more detail.

Long story short, that didn’t happen. For the first week, I was eating really well, keeping the Whole 30 detox plan perfectly…and then my love of ice cream hit. It became pretty obvious that this extreme dieting wasn’t going to work out, as realized here. So I kind of just stuffed my face and started scrambling for something different. After watching Fat Head, I decided to give the 100 grams of carbs or less a day thing a chance. OH. MY. GOODNESS.

Where has this been all my life?!

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Life was splendid. I knew how much I was eating, I could plan for a cheat (that wouldn’t actually screw me up), and life became simple/freakin awesome.

As for fitness, if you hadn’t guessed…I didn’t become a cardio bunny. On the contrary, I lift, like… properly. My workouts mainly consist of weight training, with two cardio days a week. The result?

Prepare yourself…

I ACTUALLY HAVE A BUTT!!!!

I would post a photo but that’s just rude.

Granted, I’ve always had a booty, but in a month’s time, it has lifted and firmed up in ways I didn’t think possible in such a short amount of time. If that weren’t enough, I’ve also really come to love having a different form of progress. When being fit goes beyond the scale, and into a measurable change in my own strength, I feel empowered instead of just thinner… That is priceless! I didn’t expect a booty out of this whole thing…I just wanted to be skinnier. The scale has only moved two pounds, but how can I argue with this booty thing?

Emotional Changes:

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At the beginning of this month, I sat in the airport, holding back tears while examining the state of my life at that point in time. I was disappointed as I saw my family change and experience amazing things, while I just wallowed in the fact that my life had disintegrated in a year. Last month I sat in the airport as a girl still crushed by her break up, still mourning the summer before, terrified of what the next year had to bring, and still grieving everything my life no longer was without my boy… I won’t go into full detail, but here is a little glimpse into why I was having said meltdown. I am a professional pity party thrower, and that is exactly what I did.

A month later, and the only thing I have learned was how much I have learned! It was when I found myself all alone that I realized I needed to learn to love and grow myself, by myself for my sake, and for the sake of those around me. This month, I have done just that. Being away from my family/friends, having no distractions, and being so single it’s crazy, I had time to really find out who I am, and as it turns out…I really like myself.

When I wrote Are You A Psychotic Girlfriend?” it made me realize just how much I have grown and blossomed on my own. As a result of all this new found confidence and stability, I am a better daughter, partner, friend, and person. The relationships I have with those I love are currently the best they have ever been. It wasn’t until this month that I realized that I was impossible to love, because I thought I was unlovable, not because I actually sucked at life. I crippled my own self esteem, and made everyone that came into my life, fix it. So once I changed that, life got brighter, the birds sung louder, and I cant think of anything to say more clique than that, so you’re welcome.

Moving forward:

 

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I owe all of these changes to my beliefs, the change in my family life, maturity, and my independent need for constant change and growth. So to keep that change and growth going, I’m going to go ahead an outline my goals for the coming month. Because my ultimate goal here is to build the very best version of myself before leaving to study in the United Kingdom (well, England), so naturally all of my goals are centered around those two things.

In the next month, I will be getting all my school stuff squared away, finalizing the papers for my induction to the honors program, studying for the SIX exams I have to take in November, writing an amazing personal statement, spending as much time with my  friends and family as possible, and maintaining all of the awesome things I have achieved the previous month (especially the booty building thing). All while enjoying my summer and new found lessons.

A huge thanks to all of you that have commented,subscribed, shared, and helped to make this blog more successful than I could have ever imagined in such a short time.
Much love,
Lucy xx

Happy, Healthy, and Freakin’ Fabulous

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It’s been about a week since I began the Whole 30 (discussed in previous blog), and I’m not going to lie, it wasn’t easy. An entire week of clean eating which basically means no legumes, no dairy, no added sugar. That doesn’t sound too crazy until you realize those three things are literally in EVERYTHING. Salad dressing, protein bars (makes post workout a real challenge),  and obviously…all things yummy. It sounds intense, and it was… but I do have a few tips for surviving the first week.

Tip 1: Get all the crap out

Make your kitchen a temptation free zone. Don’t set yourself up for disaster by having bagels, ice cream, and all things junk food hanging around your house. Anything you can shove in your face during a moment of weakness (cupcakes) has got to go!

Tip 2: Go shopping for the good stuff

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Few things in life make me quite as happy as planning and making list (It’s a problem), so this part excites me just a little bit too much. Making a little bit of an ordeal out of planning and shopping will take the guess work out of clean eating, and anything that makes it easier is a huge plus! So plan meals that actually sound appetizing, write out a list of everything you’ll need for said yummy-ness, stick to it, and avoid buying any tempting foods.

Tip 3: Get your hands on some Your Tea, Tiny Tea.

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Seriously. You have probably seen this tea somewhere on instagram, as a magical tea all the fitspo girls drink. It sounds like one of those gimmicky diet teas that just makes you lose 10 pounds due to pooping your intestines out…but it’s not. This tea was a life saver this week as it really works with your digestive system to cut cravings, increase energy, decrease bloat, and clear up your skin. It is the bomb.com. Speaking of .com, go to www.yourtea.com and get some, you will thank me during this Whole 30 hell week.

Tip 4: Get excited about good food.

It’s easy to get bored with clean eating, but there is a way to switch things up a little bit. Go to the farmers market, go to  cool restaurants that offer clean food (they are out there), and/or try new (semi insane) recipe.

Perfect example of this: I went to on a little field trip to a family farm to pick up a massive amount of fresh strawberries. They were picked that morning, super tiny, and SO sweet. They basically became lunch and snack and dessert and…you get the point. They were just strawberries, but something about doing something special to get them made the whole fruit loving ordeal, way more exciting.

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Tip 5: Remember you do not have super powers.

Chances are, you are not eating nearly as many carbs as you were before and that changes things. And by things, I mean workouts. This diet requires a pretty serious cut to the major energy source known as carbohydrates which can make exercise a hell like experience if you don’t plan ahead. You are not super human, and you cannot workout on broccoli alone. I made the mistake of running for half an hour and lifting for a full hour, which, long story short lead to a full on barf feast. It was attractive, let me tell ya.

Tip 6: Avoid cravedom.

There is literally nothing worse than being struck by a craving AND boredom (let’s call this cravedom). Cravedom is a recipe for disaster. Stay. Busy.

I read, walked, kayaked, went to the gym, called a friend, braided hair, went for a drive…you name it, I did it. Boredom is my worst enemy and after letting it get the best of me once, I avoided it at all cost for the rest of this week. I’m really glad I did this…Being on a mission to stay busy led me to some pretty awesome adventures, such as my first kayaking trip…

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WAY better than cravedom. So go explore something… it will keep you from spartan kicking everyone and/or devouring ice cream.

Tip 7: Cheat.

Yep. That’s right. The Whole 30 program says that if you cheat you should start over from day one. Um, no. Although I see their point as far as breaking bad habits, and living a healthier lifestyle…I also see my point as far enjoying life and not torturing yourself.

Now, I have never been a junk eater, it wasn’t how I was raised, and I never developed a love for crappy food. However, I am very much so the girl that always wants what I can’t have. That to say, I am fine with eating completely clean, I enjoy it 95% of the time, but every once in a while…this girl NEEDS ice cream. By day five, I was becoming the ice cream seeking monster. So what did I do?

First…I panicked because I was on the Whole 30 and cheating meant starting over. So I denied myself, because quitting is for quitters. Later in that day I found myself sitting in the park (avoiding cravedom), hating on my body for not allowing me to enjoy food without being a fat slob, AND contemplating how bad it would be to punch a five year old in the face and steal his ice cream. This kind of made me realize that I was depriving myself way too much and I was no longer just craving, I was obsessing and frustrating the crap out of myself.

I bought the ice cream, a box of cones, had a very clean day of eating, kayaked for like 23 hours, and ended my day with a nice, mint chocolate chip ice cream cone.

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It was a magical experience. I was seeing ponies, and rainbows and life was better. I wasn’t shaming myself. I knew that one cone was going to be flippin’ amazing and I was not actually going to turn into a hunk of lard over one serving of ice cream.

Cheat. Go ahead, just make sure to follow through with tip 8.

Tip 8: Don’t go insane, get back on that train! (yep, that rhymes…you’re welcome)

I do believe you should cheat a bit, but at the same time, you do have to get back on the train. If you can’t handle having one bad meal and then following it up with another week or month of clean eating, I would really consider not cheating very often.

So if you’re dying and you need to give in a little, have something small (under 400 calories or so) at the end of a good week. If you can hold out, treat yourself to that burger and fries (800-1000 calories) at the end of a good month. I know that sounds a bit insane, but trust me, it will keep you on the wagon for more than five days and/or your first real craving, unless of course, the first sentence applies to you.

 

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I am proud to say my post cheat meal was two eggs with salsa and sliced avocado. I successfully quenched my ice cream thirst, and today the Whole 30 is my best friend again. It’s called moderation, and it is a B-E-A-UUUTIFUL thing.

Tip 9: Enjoy life. The most important part of it all.

Food is meant to be enjoyed, life is meant to be enjoyed, and both can be done in good health. Love your body before you love a diet or the gym. Those things are meant to better you, not to make you a slave to them. You’ve only got one  body, so treat it kindly and it will return the favor.

I will never be stick thin, and maybe that’s because I need ice cream once a week and I’ve got the metabolism of a lasagna noodle. But I would rather indulge my love of mint chocolate chip ice cream and enjoy life, than be a cranky bitch who hates on my naturally curvacious body and wants to punch five year olds all day. I’ve been at my “goal” weight and I’ve been at my “okay” weight (where I am now), and honestly… I prefer my “okay” weight. People still  love me, hot guys still think I’m  hot, I still feel like a curvy boss in my bathing suits, and I enjoy ice cream from time to time without the need to guilt myself into going to the gym for three hours (that’s not an exaggeration).

It’s not always about skinny(especially if you’re not naturally that way), sometimes it’s just about happy, healthy, and freakin’ sexy.

 

 

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Aforementioned Adventures Revealed

 

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I’ve been throwing the words “upcoming adventures” into parts of my post, and I think it’s about time I go on a little bit about what I mean.

About a month ago, I began to realize that I have grown up and learned so much in a time I also consider to be on of the most painful I’ve ever experienced. After that realization, I spent quite awhile wondering what I was going to do with all my new found lessons. As it turns out, actually applying the lessons to my life was the best course of action. The biggest question became: How?

Long story short, I am in Idaho with one of my best friends who is on a similar mission, and the lesson applying has begun. During the day I work on health and fitness with the help of training and the Whole 30 (see details below), and by night I work on the more emotional side by working on my Power Sheets (also more detailed below) and writing anything and everything that comes to mind.

What is the Whole 30? If you ask me, it is a self induced torture that involves eating completely clean for thirty days NO CHEAT DAYS (or you have to start all over again) a.k.a. torture. But in reality, it’s a pretty hardcore sugar, legume, and dairy free month that I really think all people should do some variation of, at least once.

If you’re brave, and/or tired of being fat, sluggish, moody, and willing to give it a go, their site has everything you’ll need to get started, including LOADS of shopping list, recipes, and information about all things clean eating.

http://whole30.com

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This is probably the most boring post I will ever make, buuuut I’m trying to lay some foundation here people, so bear with me.

Next on the agenda is the Power Sheets, a brilliant system, created by Lara Casey for the sole purpose of having a heart-to-heart with yourself and planning your future based on your own personal visions and learned lessons I couldn’t have discovered these power sheets at a better time. I’m only a few days in and I’m already impressed with the realizations it has brought me.

http://laracasey.com/

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Last on this whole personal renovation, is exercise. That has no fancy published routine, instead I will leave that in the hands of my trainer, and she knows me well enough to switch that up every day. I will keep you all updated on my life. I promise the rest of this will be more interesting, I just wanted to give credit where credit was due for the awesome things I expect to happen this summer.

Now on a real note, before you start thinking I have supernatural self control:

This video perfectly explains my sentiments towards the key lime pie sitting in the fridge..You’re welcome.

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I will now focus on being less of a bore for my next post.  The foundation of what I’m doing, and the huge accountability factor of you all being able to see this was much needed, so thank you for slightly judging me. xx